I smiled

I went to see “Cabin Fever,” a  local variety show dinner theater with the hubby.  We were seated at Table 9, right near the front center. Perfect.
As we waited for dinner to be served the table mate to the left said to me ” I want to learn about Parkinson’s Disease”.
“Ok”, I said, “What do you want to know?”
 The reply came rocket fire “I’ve watched you and I don’t see anything wrong with you.  You look like everybody else.  Oh I guess I did see Charlie helping you walk from the car”.
 “Well I work REALLY hard.”
 “And how come you are so positive and upbeat.  Most people with a diagnosis like yours just give  up.”

I smiled.

“There is no other option.  I want to live and live fully.  I am still alive, you know.

When I asked God “What am I supposed to do with this stupid disease? God replied, do something good.”

“And have you done some good things?”

“Why yes I have.  I have raised money for research, started a support group, made lots of friends and I think maybe I have brought some people hope.”

“How do you know you have brought people hope? How do you do that?”

Oh my.  I am speechless.  An escape to the restroom is necessary.  But before I go I say:

“I stay upbeat and positive because that is the only option.”

You have to wonder WHY God lets Parkinson’s disease attack so many people.  I could try to figure out WHY I have PD.  That would take so much time.  I rather spend my time doing things I enjoy.  And shouldn’t I be angry at God for messing up my life?  No, my life is not messed up.  I have had some challenging times mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically, yes. And it takes too much energy to be angry.  So lookie here, I am saving time and energy by being positive and upbeat.

I heard this song the other day.  Performed by Stephen Curtis Chapman, these word brought me peace.  You can go to YouTube to listen of just read them here.
                                             

 Glorious Unfolding
                                                            
Lay your head down tonight
 Take a rest from the fight
    Don’t try to figure it out

Just listen to what I’m whispering to your heart

‘Cause I know this is not

Anything like you thought

The story of your life was gonna be

And it feels like the end has started closing in on you

But it’s just not true

There’s so much of the story that’s still yet to unfold

               And this is going to be a glorious unfolding
          Just you wait and see and you will be amazed
       You’ve just got to believe the story is so far from over

So hold on to every promise God has made to us

And watch this glorious unfolding

        God’s plan from the start
For this world and your heart
Has been to show His glory and His grace

Forever revealing the depth and the beauty of

His unfailing Love

And the story has only begun

And this is going to be a glorious unfolding
Just you wait and see and you will be amazed
We’ve just got to believe the story is so far from over

So hold on to every promise God has made to us

And watch this glorious unfolding

Published by Carol Clupny, author Ultreia Books

I am a middle aged woman with Parkinson's Disease. When I was first diagnosed I spent a lot of time researching the disease. Seeing a video of a man in the advanced stages of the disease attempting to get out of his chair and then "freezing" as he tried to walk across the room got me off my butt and moving. Great adventures on the Camino de Santiago and with TEAM Pedaling for Parkinson's across IOWA, as well as the day to day adventures of life have lead me to writing. My first novel, a memoir, will be published early 2019. It is called, you got it THE RIBBON OF ROAD AHEAD. Living with the degenerative neurological disease Parkinson's, ULTREIA is a word that guides me. I have chosen it as the name of my business ULTREIA BOOKS. It comes from Latin and old French and means "unfailing courage". In the old days, pilgrims would call "Ultreïa" to each other as encouragement "Go up, go further!" Nowadays we would say "You can do this thing". It takes courage to live with Parkinson's. May I face each day with unfailing courage.

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